Republishing this post from March 23, 2019:
I'm going to do my best to explain how I came to this decision without jumping down a bunch of rabbit holes. Because quite honestly, this decision making process didn't happen overnight and it wasn't a light bulb moment one day while I was pondering my life. It was a process. If you know me personally, you know I can't make decisions to save my life. Even very small decisions. You might also know that even after making a big life altering decision, I still question myself. That's why the decision to become a certified Labor & Postpartum Doula was a BIG one. However, everyday since I texted my husband, Zach, and said "I'm doing it. It's gonna happen. This is what I want," I haven't looked back.
Fall of 2018 was an incredibly difficult season for me and one that I would rather not relive. So I will just summarize this time of my life with this statement: I started hating my job which lead me to the decision that I knew I didn't want to teach ED any more; maybe not even teach at all. Not because I needed "out" and not because I hated the students. It's because I had lost all passion for it and lost all motivation to be the very best teacher I could be. I stopped caring. I hate admitting that because it does make me sound a little awful but this is all important to the journey of how I decided to become a Doula: I knew it was time for me to find a new passion.
After the New Year I decided to take some time off social media. I wanted to remove that kind of influence in order to really discover what I am passionate about, what I am good at and what I could see myself doing long term that I would continually enjoy. I discovered during that time that I really enjoy helping people. So I knew that whatever I was going to do, I wanted to help people. After some more self reflection and prayer, I realized how much I enjoy helping new mothers. I am a young mom of two girls- a 2 year old and a 1 year old. I'm still figuring motherhood out, as it is not an easy job, but I have found it to be one of the most natural things I have done. So putting together all these pieces, I discovered that I have so much to offer women. I feel called to help women during the transition into motherhood. I feel called to encourage women. I feel called to empower women. I feel called to lead women. I'm ecstatic that God has instilled this kind of strength, power and entrepreneurship within me to help women and mothers for many years to come.